I’ve been on a journey of faith. I have left the comfortable waters and ventured to territory of expectations where few would dare to go.
Many people claim faith. But oftentimes what some call faith is actually the safe harbor of religious tradition and cultural obligation. They never go beyond what is reasonable to themselves or their peers, they live within reasonable boundaries and never question the limits of their own reasoning or grow beyond it.
It requires a small degree of faith to sail in a harbor and some skill too. But, going beyond the harbor, sailing beyond the navigational charts, trusting that inner compass of promised lands over the horizon and beyond sight, that requires true faith. It is a faith for a journey that can’t be planned in advance, a journey where provisions could run out, where there is no shoreline to see, where storms arise and hope can seem distant or even an impossibility.
Some days I do long for the simplicity of that harbor I left before starting this journey. I pray that my faith will lead me to the place of solace that promised to be right over the horizon. It becomes hard to believe your own eyes when a sight of land at a distance has too many times before become a mirage. The food has become stale, the rations have been diminished and the ship has been in better repair.
Storms of fear and doubt come and go. It is hard to distinguish friend from foe in a place where true colors are often hidden and only discovered after a cannon blast has ripped a hole in your side. There are days of pleasantness, a good tailwind and clear skies. There are days of fog, days of doldrums, dark nights, moments of terror and times where all seems hopeless.
Still, one has little choice, one must continue to sail on in faith because the harbor is too far gone to return back. You continue ahead knowing only in your heart that is land ahead. It is a faint glimmer of hope in a vast empty ocean, but it is a hope that cannot be lost.
So I continue in faith…